What's Your Passion?
If I haven’t preached enough about self-care and self-love, I think it’s time for me to delve into priorities. See, the struggle with priorities is that only you can define them for yourself and they change like the wind.
One year ago, I would’ve told you that my priority was getting through the holidays will enough self-will to not completely destroy the mental mindset and body I had created over 12 months. This year, that is not a priority. While I still hope to not destroy myself, I know that I have spent the past 12 months gaining a new perspective wherein I have discovered and empowered my self-love to take precedence over whatever emotions of comfort I perceive holiday junk food to provide. It is not a critical action because it is now a habit.
Wow. That took 24 months. But the time passed no matter if I had created that goal and achieved it or not. Remember that.
But priorities shift and that’s an amazing thing! We are not destined to make the same mistakes because we can create habits that help us form bigger better goals!
And it’s difficult to see the end or sometimes you don’t want to recognize that it is time to grow again. A few moments of pain moving from one shell to the next, but unless you allow yourself to enjoy the process you will never believe that the change will be better.
After a few dreams get crushed the newer dreams become realistic and hardly a dream at all - they are now goals with timelines and plans and there is no wonder about whether or not you are capable, just when the hard work will pay off.
I have to stress to you, hard work always pays off.
But time is the only way to prove that hard work is the absolute best thing you can do for yourself.
This year, in 2017, I have multiple dreams and some are spilling over from previous years because priorities shifted and education will always come before fitness model goals just because I put more value in my brains than I do my body. Whoops, spoiler, you can want that fucking fit body more than anything in this world and once you get it, you’re still dumb as rocks. At least that’s how I see it.
I can’t help you stomp those mental mind blocks without first realizing my own and using my education to help you through them. But first I need the education.
So even though weight lifting is my favorite and I go to the gym after 12 hour shifts, I will not go to the gym to meal prep. That’s my priority. Eating well will always trump the gym. Spending time with my parents and family will most likely trump meal prep (for one meal). And my integrity and ethical values lead every decision I make.
All of these personal traits and values and priorities circle around my absolute, black and white, steadfast, killer instinct to help.
I need to feel needed. I’ve said it a few times this year, finally realizing exactly what I mean when I say it. It’s not that I do not feel love for being me, it’s that I do not feel worthy of the love unless I am able to assist. I chose nursing. I chose OR nursing. I chose education. I chose volunteering. I chose love. All because I want to serve.
But now my dreams are bigger and the population I want to serve is no longer within arm’s reach. Now I want to help everyone. I want to be the support and inspiration for your self control. I’m not saying you need a diet, I’m saying I want you to understand why your body hurts. I want you to feel so much love for yourself that you choose to be healthy because it hurts you mentally and physically to act unhealthily.
It’s crazy what I’m writing. It’s crazy how I feel. But everything has led up to me deciding to obtain more degrees and more certifications and more credentials to make you believe me when I say, you are worth health. You deserve health.
But more so, I want you to find something you’re so passionate about that you cannot sleep. Then you’ll know you’re living.
One year ago, I would’ve told you that my priority was getting through the holidays will enough self-will to not completely destroy the mental mindset and body I had created over 12 months. This year, that is not a priority. While I still hope to not destroy myself, I know that I have spent the past 12 months gaining a new perspective wherein I have discovered and empowered my self-love to take precedence over whatever emotions of comfort I perceive holiday junk food to provide. It is not a critical action because it is now a habit.
Wow. That took 24 months. But the time passed no matter if I had created that goal and achieved it or not. Remember that.
But priorities shift and that’s an amazing thing! We are not destined to make the same mistakes because we can create habits that help us form bigger better goals!
And it’s difficult to see the end or sometimes you don’t want to recognize that it is time to grow again. A few moments of pain moving from one shell to the next, but unless you allow yourself to enjoy the process you will never believe that the change will be better.
After a few dreams get crushed the newer dreams become realistic and hardly a dream at all - they are now goals with timelines and plans and there is no wonder about whether or not you are capable, just when the hard work will pay off.
I have to stress to you, hard work always pays off.
But time is the only way to prove that hard work is the absolute best thing you can do for yourself.
This year, in 2017, I have multiple dreams and some are spilling over from previous years because priorities shifted and education will always come before fitness model goals just because I put more value in my brains than I do my body. Whoops, spoiler, you can want that fucking fit body more than anything in this world and once you get it, you’re still dumb as rocks. At least that’s how I see it.
I can’t help you stomp those mental mind blocks without first realizing my own and using my education to help you through them. But first I need the education.
So even though weight lifting is my favorite and I go to the gym after 12 hour shifts, I will not go to the gym to meal prep. That’s my priority. Eating well will always trump the gym. Spending time with my parents and family will most likely trump meal prep (for one meal). And my integrity and ethical values lead every decision I make.
All of these personal traits and values and priorities circle around my absolute, black and white, steadfast, killer instinct to help.
I need to feel needed. I’ve said it a few times this year, finally realizing exactly what I mean when I say it. It’s not that I do not feel love for being me, it’s that I do not feel worthy of the love unless I am able to assist. I chose nursing. I chose OR nursing. I chose education. I chose volunteering. I chose love. All because I want to serve.
But now my dreams are bigger and the population I want to serve is no longer within arm’s reach. Now I want to help everyone. I want to be the support and inspiration for your self control. I’m not saying you need a diet, I’m saying I want you to understand why your body hurts. I want you to feel so much love for yourself that you choose to be healthy because it hurts you mentally and physically to act unhealthily.
It’s crazy what I’m writing. It’s crazy how I feel. But everything has led up to me deciding to obtain more degrees and more certifications and more credentials to make you believe me when I say, you are worth health. You deserve health.
But more so, I want you to find something you’re so passionate about that you cannot sleep. Then you’ll know you’re living.
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